writing...again

I have a feeling you're working against this idea of mine, but I'm going to try anyway. I haven't been able to write anything on the story you loved so much. I have been playing around with an idea, a total re-write. Yes, it's a bit brutal but I have to be, maybe when I can feel that warm feeling inside I can put the story back to how you like it but I think this is how I feel right now.

Funny thing as I write I realize only you would understand this, this gibberish I've blurted out.

and yes, this still sucks big time, I'm not sure I can even write or rewrite the story but I need to try and help myself heal.