Sorry Angel Girl

 I've wanted to write to you but everytime I'd start to get my laptop I just couldn't. My heart hasn't been in it. I miss you so much, there are so many days when I want to call you and just hear your voice.

7 years...

 I still find it so hard to believe that 7 years has passed since you left us. I remember getting home and flipping open my laptop and signing on to Facebook. The words hit me like a ton of bricks. You were gone. It didn't seem possible, we'd just talked over the weekend, you were telling me about making the bouquets for your wedding. It's not like I hadn't lost loved ones before, my dad and grandparents and my friend Tom...but your death has left a whole in my life, you were the little sister I never knew I wanted. I really hate Groundhog Day now...even the movie, ok, not the movie but I still can't watch it on Groundhog day...

Keep watching over me angel girl, sweet bumble

First Saturday of 2024

 thought about you today as I stopped at Wawa to get gas, never got the turkey bowl but now they have a brisket bowl, lol....

I started taking down Christmas today, slow process considering it took me 3 weeks to put everything up! With today being the 12th day of Christmas it makes sense to start deconstructing the holiday.

I found a funny video from Straight No Chaser, they were doing a Taylor Swift medley!'

I so wish I could share this with you, the grief isn't as bad but it's still there, not just for you but my dad, grandparents, my Aunt Irene...

another year

 it's now 2024 and sadly I know in 32 days it will be my least favorite day of the year... it's hard to think about the new year without thinking about people, family that I miss. Yes, some of those are choices I've made and I do miss them but mainly it's the family I can't see right now, my angels.

Sister of my heart as things happen to new friends I can't help but remember your plans, your life and how much I miss you.

Grief is a slow process I've learned and hits you when you least expect it to, I honestly never want to forget you or any of my family, those memories will sustain me.

almost Christmas

 hello dearest angel,

this month has flown by, so much to do and somehow there is always something there to remind me of you! I've seen several Bumbles, met many cashiers named Julie and of course every time I get into my car I hear the group you introduced me to, Straight No Chaser!

I have off this week and so far we've celebrated my parents 50th wedding anniversary, I've wrapped all my presents and made 4 different types of Christmas cookies!!

of course, I still have more things to do, need to go to Hobby Lobby for some supplies, I'm making my mom some earrings for Christmas and maybe a pair or two for a friend.

thank you sweet angel for being my inspiration!

new beginnings

 You know me, I don't let many people in. But I was very lucky to find a friend in a co-worker, her name is Cheyenne; she and her husband Kyle are about to become parents. Lol, real soon as in sometime tomorrow! They are having a little girl and her name is Abigail. 

I was even thinking about making her a fleece blanket like you taught me, another way to remind myself that life goes on and I can keep you always in my heart.

Oh Brother!

 hey dearest,

busy week so far, cleaning and getting ready for my brothers visit for Thanksgiving! We haven't had Thanksgiving together since 1999! He and I went to Key West to help mom and pops move into their new rental house! Sadly during that trip I found out I was losing my job...so much fun NOT, strangely it's all worked out almost perfectly.

Actually spent some time at my storage unit, I have so much to do! Yike!! I keep thinking about all the things I had hauled away as trash, the things I just had to leave in the house and then all the clothes, books and other bits and pieces I have in storage...for just under 900 square feet of house I had a lot!

So, tomorrow I'll drive to Tampa Airport, 37 miles one way in traffic...his flight comes in around 6:30. Mom is coming with me and she figures we need to leave around 4;30 due to traffic, yes, remember those Fridays calling me as I was driving from St. Petersburg to Lakeland! I'm so glad I don't have to make that trip anymore especially since I don't have you to talk to on Fridays and Sundays (trip back), I miss that so much. I remember our last Sunday call, you told me about making the flowers for your wedding and when I got home you'd sent me pictures.